Among the living, so I thought...

    We see each other, as the outside of each person, right? We see the surface of every one around us. But what we do not see, is what needs to be seen.
     We walk around with huge smiles on our faces, acting the "a live" role. As if this a play. But really, we're dead. Broken. Abandoned. Alone. Look around you the next time you go to a store or a church or anywhere out in public... see if you are walking among the masked...the dead.
                        Now I ask...Why?
       Why do we hide our feelings? Why do we put on this ridiculous mask that makes our lives seem perfect when they aren't? We feel that no one needs to know our business, or that people don't really want to know what's wrong so what's the point in telling them? Right? {Well for those who don't really want to hear what is going on in that person's life...why do you ask? To start conversation? Why not really ask, and really wonder how someone else is doing? Why not think about someone else for a change? And people can tell when you really don't want to know but ask anyways... They can sense it.} There is also the fact, one may not want to burden another with all of their crap so they keep it tucked away until they break down from all the stress. That is understandable. But in a way it reveals insecurity, one is too worried if they would be laughed at, or that people would have no heart and tell them to get over it. That is when we take it to God! We lay all of our crudd at His feet, because he is without judgement...and he already accepts us for who we are!
         Next time you see that you are walking 'among the living dead' reach out to them... Or maybe you are the living dead... Don't let the troubles of this world take away your pure joy given to you by the creator! Don't let it rob you of happiness, the real happiness that is inside of you not your mask. Its okay to let people see your heart...just guard it...but don't hide it....and live life NOT living a lie... Live life the way you see it! Not how you want it to be... God's got you in his arms, he wont let you go! Just let his light change the hearts of others around you through your heart... That would mean, unmasking your heart first...:) But you can do it! I have faith in you!:) And God is right there with you!
God bless!!:)

I'm the Director of Pretending

     Remember the days of imagination? Of innocence and discovery? The days of playing house? And acting as though you're the director of this particular pretend game?
     You'd tell others what to say, as if they had no mind at all, or just because your idea was better than theirs, and they're willing to listen to you. You'd complain, "No! Don't say that!" "Don't do that!". You'd plea sometimes with what you thought was unintellegant, and obnoxious of the other pretenders. You tell them to test your idea hoping they would just go along with what you were saying.
     You would get frustrated, and sometimes give up on what was impossible, which is, being the director of ignorant nuisances. So you would lay down your crown of being King of Pretending, but only for a moment. All the while you evolve a plan that satisfies.
     Do you remember? All those times, of pure happiness?
Now you can see, that the director of pretending, now directs his own life. Living as a testimony of his childish dreams, now leading those behind him, setting an example for the followers he'll receive. But he'll find that not all are pursuadable. Not all are willing to do as their told. And he'll face the same frustration, and evolve a new plan, until he is satisfied.
     This is the life of the Director of Pretending.